DOB: Jul 22, 1998Missing: Aug 24, 2006Age Now: 8Sex: FemaleRace: White/HispHair: BlackEyes: BrownHeight: 4'3" (130 cm)Weight: 55 lbs (25 kg)Missing From:GUYMONOKUnited States
Llesenia (Llesi) is a little girl we knew once . We tried to be her pastors. We visited her in the hospital when she was sick. She came to VBS. She worshiped with us on Sunday morning.
But apparently, Llesenia is forgotten. She is missing. We don't know now whether she is dead or alive. As if we didn't really know where she was already. . .
All because the people -- the lawyers, the judges, the parent, the social workers who were supposed to protect this little one's life -- have valued their own time, careers and concerns over hers.
Llesenia suffers (or suffered) from the washing of hands. An entire nation of Pontius Pilate's.
"It's not our fault!" says the faceless system organized to disperse guilt.
"Who is to blame?" they ask incredulously throwing up their fists of paperwork.
Is it the perverse pedophile from whom she may have contracted a deadly disease upon her return to her mother's home?
Or some other violent boyfried who gave her scars on her head and her knee?
Or the arrogantly pious mother who only showed affection at the child's hospital bedside?
Or is it the Texas County, OK judge who tossed this child dismissively from chaos to love and back to a terrorized existence once again?
Or was it the State of Oklahoma's social worker who preserved the biological "family" at any cost?
I feel the guilt of this child's life and, perhaps, death, because at some level she needed salvation. Not merely the salvation of her soul -- but the salvation of her very life. And maybe I didn't pray enough for it. For I know I never fought hard enough or spoken loud enough or preached long enough to ever make a difference.
I knew her and I knew what was going wrong. What could I have done?